Screen shot from my video.
I have wanted to make something like this for a long time. I don’t know that I made exactly what I wanted to, or said what I wanted to say with this piece but I made something I am proud of and that is something in itself.
Lets back up a little to the day of me filming this:
I woke up and something was off. I felt a heaviness, and a loneliness that was almost crippling. I knew I had to make time to be alone, and that I needed to do something to focus my energy or succumb to the weight of the day. I decided to head off in the rain to film some pieces for a project I have had on my mind for a year now but once I started filming something was different. Anytime I get to be with a camera it helps take my mind off of life. It lets me focus on my craft and the technical details of the equipment. As I dialed everything in the my liking, I was able to settle in to the work easily. Once the ball was rolling, I knew I was making something but not what I had set out to create. I think that happens more often than not but I also think there is a beauty in it as well.
This video is something I made for myself. I don’t remember these places from a time when I was young enough to enjoy them fully, but I know from conversations, and photos that I spent a great part of my child hood here. I titled it Homesick because it is my home. Its where I grew up, and I am homesick but not for the place itself but for the memories I have lost.
I hope you enjoy it and I hope you know that WE STILL NEED YOU HERE.
One more screen shot from my film.